what are you doing??

recently ive been really stressed out over college, my major, my future, my classes next year all that stuff. like major stressed out. so i prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed some more. but the more i prayed about what God wanted me to do with my life the futher he seemed to be. i didnt feel Him in my devotions or feel his comfort like usual. God has been so far off. so i prayed and prayed even more about Gods will for my life and i kept getting back nothing. have you ever been there? i had no idea where to turn except God about all these questions in my life and then when i was prepareing a bible study i came across this qoute. and it felt like a smack in the face.

"The real issue in life is not the search for Gods will; it is the search for God. The issue in faith is not knowing what God is doing, rather it is knowing that God knows what He is doing. The issue of faith is seekingGods presence, not Gods plan for my life, because there is no plan outside of my knowing Him."

i read this and i couldnt believe how true it was and how dumb i felt!! for over a month i felt like God was saying that i was missing the big picture. i thought it was about me and my life and my future cause thats what i had been praying about. and because im just a selfish person sometimes. and the thing i was missing was so big and important i didnt even see it. God, i was misssing God. the single most important thing in my life. and im learning and believeing that God will carry me to the right place no matter how hard it is to get there.... and its the place where my heart will be closest to His.

God works so wonderfullly. i kept reading in my bible all these verses about how God will never ever leave your side, but i felt like he had. when i read this qoute i realized i hadnt been seeking God. i wasnt chasing Him back the way He was chasing me. so im gonna start praying more for other people in my prayers instead of myself all the time, praising and thanking Him for what He has done for me. i found it kinda "ironic" that the day before i read this qoute i had decieded this week wasnt gonna be about me, it was gonna be about God. i also find it "funny" that this Sunday is Easter. God has a way of tying things together that just blows my mind. He truely is amazing.

love
always and forever
gracie